(I’m just answer 11 here since someone else also asked for 15. ^^/ So not ignoring it. Just might be best to leave it in a separate answer.)

She clenches her hands a moment before forcing them to relax. Her gaze looking out the nearby window as she takes a deep breath. A soft shake of her head.

“I struggled for so long.” A deep sigh as she looks down at her open hands. “With the consequences of the things I did when I left Ishgard after five years. I decided my vengeance for what the Garleans had taken from me was worth it. Only to learn how foolish I truly was. I was not ready for the nightmares that haunted me nor the fact I realized later that the people I killed… Should not have been punished for those that had killed my father. They had families and loved ones. I had done to them what had been done to me. I had continued the circle of hate an destruction.”

She walks over to the window an places her hands upon the windowsill. “I am not sure I will ever truly be over it. But… I have those I love and care about. They support me an keep me strong. With them… I can overcome anything. Maybe even this.”

“For days… I would not leave my room.” He sighs an looks uncomfortable as he crosses his arms over his chest. He gazes towards where his sword and shield rest on a nearby table. “I was so lost. I had been a novice when I joined the troops at Steel Vigil. To be one of those… To survive…”

He runs a hand over the red rose sigil upon the silver shield. “The man I admired and wanted to be most like gave his life for us. For us that survived. I was not sure where to turn or what steps to take as I wallowed in my misery. I lost myself for a time. My dreams haunted by the roars of dragons.”

He picks up the sword finally, raising before his face. He turns the blade so the edge is facing him as he stares past it. “Eventually I found myself once more. I pledged myself to a purpose. If I was going to idolize Lord Chlodebaimt… Then I could not, would not continue to mope about my room in Ishgard like some sort of child. I was a man an it was time I acted as such. I would do my best to see the family and country he loved so much safe. Help to restore the glory lost when Steel Vigil fell. I would honor that man in my own way.”