“My opinion on romance? Well considering I am married… I am not looking for romance. There is no need. I do still enjoy a good romance novel though. Just because I am taken doesn’t mean I can’t watch or read others enjoying their romances. As for my opinion on…” She looks away, cheeks stained pink with blush. “On Sex… My husband and I came to an agreement on that long ago. He doesn’t want to know what I decide to do in our long absences of seeing each other. Sex is just that. Sex. It doesn’t have to have emotions attached to it.”
“Romance? Sex?! Are such questions really necessary?” Lance looks surprised and a bit embarrassed by the question. He sighs softly an scratches his cheek. “I enjoy romancing a partner. Doesn’t everyone want a bit of romance in their lives? As far as the other question…” He takes a deep breath an thinks a moment on how he wants to answer this. “I would not just sleep with anyone. I’m not that sort of man. I want a deeper connection with that person. I want it to be special.”
(Okay this one I’ve been sitting on for a while cause the question itself was confusing me at the time. An going OOC just because I’m not feeling it for answering this IC. I’m answer this before the others in my box just because of how long it’s been in here. Sorry for the delay. ^^; I’m hoping I got myself unconfused on the question. Thanks for the ask @prettyboyantain)
(Her neck and shoulders. Especially with how she sometimes spends hours pouring over books for research.)
(His legs and arms. Always keeping himself ready in unfamiliar situations in case he needs to move to defend or attack as needed.)
(I’m hoping I am understanding number 3 right lol. So forgive me if I’m not. For pronouns for Dest, it would be she/her. She’s bixsexual but still identifies as a female.)
“Oh… Three things that make me anxious? Hmm… Crowded places. I like to meet new people but I prefer the experience to be more… Private. Too many people makes me anxious and I’ll withdraw. Slimy things. I can’t stand the feeling. Like the other night at the FC house when J’siris brought a blue octopus from a fishing contest his sister won. I kept trying to get away from the kitchen but…” Dest narrows her eyes. “Oni dragged me over an then watched to make sure I wouldn’t leave… For a third… Being a healer. I’m always afraid I’m mess up or do something I shouldn’t. I’ve only a few years of experience under my belt.”
“As far as being in love. I have been. More then once. I still find people who I love. However it depends on the type of love you are asking about. There is more then one way to love a person. If you mean romantically then twice. If you mean something else then more times then I would bother counting. First was my husband. Then there was Leon. In the end I lost Leon to illness and married my childhood friend. Beyond that the other people I love are my friends and family.”
(While Lance is demisexual he still identifies as a male. So it would be he/him.)
“Dragons make me anxious. I’ve watched enough good men and woman die to flame and claw and teeth. But I do not let it stop me. I will not let someone’s death mean nothing. Noble lords and ladies as well. While I can function and behave appropriately, it does not mean I want to be in such situations to begin with. An third… dating. It has been years and I have spent so little time socializing since the fall of Steel Vigil that… I guess I am afraid of making a mistake or pushing for too much. Or causing the person who cares about me to worry because I have gotten so used to being so solitary.”
“Of course I have been in love. But love as a teenager compared to love as an adult… They are different. In the years since I had withdrawn an been married to my duty. The ladies my family tried to force upon me never caught my interests, I am seeing someone now though. I have not said the words yet… A part of me wishes to declare the words yet… I feel now is not quite the time either.”
“My childhood was fairly normal and happy. At least in my eyes. I looked up to my father and wanted to be a part of the Gods’ Quiver as he was. My mother was a doting and loving woman who enjoyed Botany though she had once been a healer. My bother was almost a black sheep but I loved him anyways. I always looked out for him, chasing off bullies as needed. I think he hated when I did that. But he was my brother. He just didn’t like being protected by a girl I think. I miss those days.”
“My childhood was fine. I was never close with my brother and sister. Nothing out of the ordinary really. I was taught how to be a proper young man. Though I would rather be outside playing with others at being knights. Eventually I was allowed to as I was expected to serve House Dzemael like my grandfather and father. I was a stubborn child. As soon as I would old enough to choose I picked Haillenarte. Partly to spite my family and partly because I wanted to be respected. I wanted something else for my life then what my family wanted for me. I wanted to make my own choices. Like I said. Stubborn child. But I do not regret a moment of my childhood.”
“I can not really say I had a least favorite. I was good at studying though I never really applied myself to it before I went to Ishgard to live with my Aunt and Uncle. I had to have something to do to pass the time while stuck there for five years. I didn’t have any friends and didn’t want any at the time.”
“Ugh… Proper Mannerisms. Do you realize how boring it is to learn all the ways of upper class and nobility? I’d much rather be on guard duty in the worst possible location of Coerthas then sit through one more class about the proper way to behave or what silverware is to be used when.”
(OOC Since this is asking for my opinion of songs that fit. 😀 This was a tough one to answer for Lance. Destiney I sort of already had a song in mind since a few days ago. Thanks for asking @catina-kitska)
(For Destiney in her current point of life it is Human by Manafest. She knows she’s not perfect an that she makes mistakes. The overall feel of the song fits her and her current feelings towards the Order. That despite being human as long as she has the Order she can keep climbing back out of the darkness regardless of her failures because she has come to treasure those among its members.)
(For Lance I was torn. It was really hard to settle on a specific song. But I picked Winter in July by Sarah Brightman. I wanted something with a lighter tone. A lot of my choices in music just does not fit him so this took a good bit of time to even find anything that might work. It was not quite what I was hoping to find but I did find it fitting. Because like in the song Lance is trying to make the best of life as he can without living in the past, hoping everything will work out in time. The title is also sort of ironic being from Ishgard where they would see winter even in the summer.)
(Hmm. OOC again. I find this one hard to really describe IC. Thanks for asking @cmahjiofbalmung)
(Destiney has mixed views about herself. Some days are better then others. Over all she probably views herself in a more Neutral stand point most of the time. Rarely does she perceive herself as positive though. She tries hard an doubts still plague her on if she is good enough for the role she is trying to fill among the Order. On her worst days she perceives herself in negative ways. She’s still trying her best to find the best way possible moving forward as some parts of her soul are still jagged and sharp. She’s healing an the Order is a blessing for her though. She’s been able to find her way through some really dark moments with their strength. So with time she will be able to start to perceive herself in a better light.)
(Lance perceives himself in mostly a positive light. He’s a knight with a high respect for honor and loyalty. The odds of him looking at himself negatively are very low and would depend on if he feels he’s failed in his duty somehow. Whether it be to Haillenarte, his cousin, or to his Lady Miu. Nothing to him is more sacred then his promises or honor.)
(Going OOC for this answer. Just easier. Thanks for asking, @sylvain-tolbert)
(She knows she has people who dislike her but has not gone as far as calling them enemies. She probably should. Her enemies are few though. Mostly her Grandfather and Uncle in the Aurifore family. She’s a half-breed from a Ishgardian mother who was disowned. Dest has been making herself more known over time which does not please Grandfather. She has a ‘pet’ dragonet. Lady is not really a pet but a small dragonet that has chosen Destiney as an interesting person to follow about. Destiney allows it because she likes Lady’s company. As well as she’s been dealing with some very old sharylan astrologian cards that were found while on a mission with the Order. She’s only used them for her company though she had asked around in Ishgard seeking answers about the cards before. Every thing she seems to do in Ishgard draws more ire from her family who lives there. Her Grandfather is stuck in the old ways, preferring to look at some of the things she’s doing as heresy. Other then her family, Dest doesn’t really have any enemies of her own.)
(Lance is in about the same boat as Destiney. Though not quite either. He’s not yet completely made his family his enemies. It will happen with time due to his actions and choices. Other then that he personally considers Heretics and dragons of Nidhogg’s brood to be his enemies. Anyone who tries to harm those he cares about of the nation he calls home is an enemy to him. He even considered one man of the Order and enemy before he learned more because the man had a reputation that Lance had once heard rumors about long ago. While he no longer considers the former Durendaire man an enemy, Lance still keeps a wary eye on him because of that reputation because he’s afraid that reputation will damn his cousin further.)
“Cooking without burning food.” She sighs an puts her head down on the table before her. “But maybe it is a good thing I can not. I have a bad sweet tooth. If I could cook the sweets I craved… It may be a bad thing. Granted work helps to keep me fit but I would hate to think of the sweets I would make an devour if I could cook.”
“I think… I would like to be skilled at more then a sword and pretty words. Maybe skilled with a trade of some sort. A fall back plan should I ever find myself unable to be a knight. Alas I have no skills with my hands beyond holding a weapon.”
“Somewhere near water. A waterfall or lake. Or even in the Shroud among the falling raindrops. There is something peaceful about the rain. Or the roaring of water drowning out all other noise. Or just the absence of people because they are afraid of getting wet. The water is calming no matter it’s form.” She closes her eyes an sighs in content as she imagines being in one of those places at the time. “If I have a good book handy at the time it is even better yet. Though I would not risk taking a book in the rain. I would not wish to harm the book.”
“Being around Lady Miu is calming. But I find I also like the silence in Coerthas as the snow falls. Watching the flakes drift down from the skies above. Granted I could do without the bitter cold winds an such that tend to join the snow. But each flake is special. Watching them dance through the air as they drift down.” He sighs wistfully. “Though I do also miss the Coerthas of old. Before the never ending winter.”
Spirit of the Warlock 