This looked too cute a chance to pass up. Since Destiney is a healer 🏥 Care for your sick/injured muse. (Flipped so Dest is the one caring for Riski mwhaha! ^^) Only if you want to since Dest hasn’t met Riski yet. :)

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Riski was starting to believe that he might, actually, be accident prone.

It wasn’t his fault that coeurls roamed the wilds around Wineport. It was a little his fault that he was more focused on the gigantoads and their long, sticky, vile tongues, but to his credit he had actually managed to avoid them. But in doing so, he’d walked right into the territory of a mother coeurl instead.

He’d gotten away – thankfully, she was more interested in getting back to her cub than giving chase – but the electricity from the whisker she’d slapped him in the back with still hadn’t faded. Riski sat with his back to a tree, his head hanging and his breath coming more shallowly than it should. Every few seconds his entire body would go rigid at another arc.

During one of the slack times, Riski looked down at the linkpearl that decorated the bracelet he wore. He could call – he could always call. But this would run its course and fade and everything would be fine. There was no sense making him worry about every little thing that happened when Riski was out in the field.

As he considered it, a noise could be heard over the sounds of the river. It was footsteps in the brush, somewhere behind him and coming closer. Riski’s hand fell away from his opposite wrist and the the linkpearl, instead finding the hilt of one of his daggers.

It was difficult to say what exactly he’d been expecting, but it wasn’t the woman who came suddenly into view. Violet eyes met blue and both held surprise.

It had started out as a trip down memory lane. It was almost her nameday and she had wanted to remember the days with Leon before his passing. Being this close to the place that brought Leon into her life was hard. Bad and good memories both were part of this place.

She walked south of Wineport with Daisy fluttering near her right shoulder, feeling more at ease the further she stepped away from Occidens. She had been careful to skirt around the
gigantoads at the river, shuddering at the thought of their slimy tongues. A disgusted expression on her face at the mere thought.

She was wondering if coming out here without her favorite bow was a bad idea. Not that having Daisy by her side didn’t give her a measure of comfort. It had just been a bad idea to bring that bow with her out this way after the things that had happened. It was too soon yet.

She stepped through the brush and froze. Blue eyes meeting violet. She was just as surprised as the man staring up at her a short distance away. Her eyes drifted from the elezen’s face to where his hand was upon a hilt of a dagger. Surprise became wariness and concern.

Her hands raised about chest height as she forced a smile, trying to appear as non-threatening as possible. Her former training days in the Shroud kicking in. There was something wrong with this situation but just from looking it was hard to understand completely. Daisy’s hands were on her shoulder as her fairy companion looked down at Riski.

“I’m sorry. I did not mean to startle you. It’s not exactly the safest of places to take a break though I must say.” Her tone was light and friendly. Had to keep herself from seeming dangerous. Not that she was dangerous. Well not dangerous to anyone but herself for the most part. Slowly she crouched down where she stood to be more at eye level with the stranger, hands on her knees and Daisy still holding on to her shoulder.

“My name is Destiney. This is Daisy.” A small wave and bright smile from the glittering fairy at her shoulder. Her eyes had never left him, searching. The eyes of a healer assessing the condition of a patient. “Do you need help? I’m a healer.”

( @riskibusiness I wanted to have this done sooner but I got too tired last night. XD Lack of sleep finally caught up with me.)

Riski’s hand fell away from his weapon, resting uselessly on the ground at his side. He forced a smile through another full body shudder. His breath left him all at once when it passed, once again hanging his head but at the same time shaking it no. “It’ll pass,” he assured the strange woman. “Don’t worry about it.”

He looked up at her through his hair, the inky strands taking advantage of his inability to push them back. “Don’t go that way,” he warned her once he caught his breath, nodding slightly in the direction he’d come from. The mother coeurl was out of sight, but he had no doubt that she would attack again should anyone get too near. “Coeurls.”

Destiney’s eyes hadn’t missed that shudder even as he smiled. She could tell he was trying to make his words reassuring. Maybe it would pass. But she found herself unable to just walk away at his words. Her hand raised to reach out to him but paused as he spoke again, dropping her hand back to her knee.

He was just a stranger. Who had obviously had a bad run in with the coeurls in the area. “I know.” It was about all she could think to say in reply to his warning. She should just let him alone. Let him deal with whatever mess he had gotten himself into if he didn’t want her help. But she wasn’t the same person she used to be. Being a healer had taught her to care about others even if she did not care as closely about her own self.

“Let me help you. Or at least linger an keep watch over you if you won’t allow me to help.” Her blue eyes studied him as she finished speaking, reaching up to brush back a stray strand of her hair from her face. After a long moment she finally moved to sit to his left but leaving several feet of space between them not giving him much choice. If he wanted to be stubborn she could be just as stubborn right back.

“What’s your name?” He asked, watching her with interest. The last thing he’d expected was for her to sit down there with him, which provoked a certain curiosity. People who didn’t do the expected thing had an easy time catching his attention.

Never mind that she didn’t really have much competition for it.

At least it wasn’t poison. The thought was actually some small comfort to Riski as he unintentionally held his breath in wait for another of the spasms. He could handle most things, but he had enough history with poison to have more than a healthy respect for it. The electrical disruption was more of an annoyance than anything else.

“My name’s Riski,” he offered, realizing he hadn’t given his own name before asking for hers. “Yeah, I know – no need to ask how I got it.” He grinned, inviting her to share his amusement at the overall situation. With another person there, even just a well-meaning stranger, his tension not caused by the coeurl’s whiskers drained away. He wasn’t alone.

Destiney blinked as she tilted her head. She had remembered saying her name earlier. But perhaps he had just not been fully paying attention with the fact that he was hurt. Maybe not seriously hurt but pain was pain and it could make paying full attention hard at times.

“It’s nice to meet you, Riski. My name is Destiney.” A warm smile at his attempt to poke fun about his name. His smile was… Charming. “Maybe it was our ‘destiny’ to meet.” Since he was trying for amusement, she chose to attempt an amusing comment of her own. It was a common one she sometimes heard about her own name.

“You don’t have to tell me but what made you decide to play with the coeurls? Or was that just an accident mister risk taker?” She couldn’t help the pull of curiosity. She was almost always curious now a days. Yet she tried to keep her tone light an amused.

This looked too cute a chance to pass up. Since Destiney is a healer 🏥 Care for your sick/injured muse. (Flipped so Dest is the one caring for Riski mwhaha! ^^) Only if you want to since Dest hasn’t met Riski yet. :)

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Riski was starting to believe that he might, actually, be accident prone.

It wasn’t his fault that coeurls roamed the wilds around Wineport. It was a little his fault that he was more focused on the gigantoads and their long, sticky, vile tongues, but to his credit he had actually managed to avoid them. But in doing so, he’d walked right into the territory of a mother coeurl instead.

He’d gotten away – thankfully, she was more interested in getting back to her cub than giving chase – but the electricity from the whisker she’d slapped him in the back with still hadn’t faded. Riski sat with his back to a tree, his head hanging and his breath coming more shallowly than it should. Every few seconds his entire body would go rigid at another arc.

During one of the slack times, Riski looked down at the linkpearl that decorated the bracelet he wore. He could call – he could always call. But this would run its course and fade and everything would be fine. There was no sense making him worry about every little thing that happened when Riski was out in the field.

As he considered it, a noise could be heard over the sounds of the river. It was footsteps in the brush, somewhere behind him and coming closer. Riski’s hand fell away from his opposite wrist and the the linkpearl, instead finding the hilt of one of his daggers.

It was difficult to say what exactly he’d been expecting, but it wasn’t the woman who came suddenly into view. Violet eyes met blue and both held surprise.

It had started out as a trip down memory lane. It was almost her nameday and she had wanted to remember the days with Leon before his passing. Being this close to the place that brought Leon into her life was hard. Bad and good memories both were part of this place.

She walked south of Wineport with Daisy fluttering near her right shoulder, feeling more at ease the further she stepped away from Occidens. She had been careful to skirt around the
gigantoads at the river, shuddering at the thought of their slimy tongues. A disgusted expression on her face at the mere thought.

She was wondering if coming out here without her favorite bow was a bad idea. Not that having Daisy by her side didn’t give her a measure of comfort. It had just been a bad idea to bring that bow with her out this way after the things that had happened. It was too soon yet.

She stepped through the brush and froze. Blue eyes meeting violet. She was just as surprised as the man staring up at her a short distance away. Her eyes drifted from the elezen’s face to where his hand was upon a hilt of a dagger. Surprise became wariness and concern.

Her hands raised about chest height as she forced a smile, trying to appear as non-threatening as possible. Her former training days in the Shroud kicking in. There was something wrong with this situation but just from looking it was hard to understand completely. Daisy’s hands were on her shoulder as her fairy companion looked down at Riski.

“I’m sorry. I did not mean to startle you. It’s not exactly the safest of places to take a break though I must say.” Her tone was light and friendly. Had to keep herself from seeming dangerous. Not that she was dangerous. Well not dangerous to anyone but herself for the most part. Slowly she crouched down where she stood to be more at eye level with the stranger, hands on her knees and Daisy still holding on to her shoulder.

“My name is Destiney. This is Daisy.” A small wave and bright smile from the glittering fairy at her shoulder. Her eyes had never left him, searching. The eyes of a healer assessing the condition of a patient. “Do you need help? I’m a healer.”

( @riskibusiness I wanted to have this done sooner but I got too tired last night. XD Lack of sleep finally caught up with me.)

Riski’s hand fell away from his weapon, resting uselessly on the ground at his side. He forced a smile through another full body shudder. His breath left him all at once when it passed, once again hanging his head but at the same time shaking it no. “It’ll pass,” he assured the strange woman. “Don’t worry about it.”

He looked up at her through his hair, the inky strands taking advantage of his inability to push them back. “Don’t go that way,” he warned her once he caught his breath, nodding slightly in the direction he’d come from. The mother coeurl was out of sight, but he had no doubt that she would attack again should anyone get too near. “Coeurls.”

Destiney’s eyes hadn’t missed that shudder even as he smiled. She could tell he was trying to make his words reassuring. Maybe it would pass. But she found herself unable to just walk away at his words. Her hand raised to reach out to him but paused as he spoke again, dropping her hand back to her knee.

He was just a stranger. Who had obviously had a bad run in with the coeurls in the area. “I know.” It was about all she could think to say in reply to his warning. She should just let him alone. Let him deal with whatever mess he had gotten himself into if he didn’t want her help. But she wasn’t the same person she used to be. Being a healer had taught her to care about others even if she did not care as closely about her own self.

“Let me help you. Or at least linger an keep watch over you if you won’t allow me to help.” Her blue eyes studied him as she finished speaking, reaching up to brush back a stray strand of her hair from her face. After a long moment she finally moved to sit to his left but leaving several feet of space between them not giving him much choice. If he wanted to be stubborn she could be just as stubborn right back.

Character Truths: Destiney

Bold those that apply:

(Bold + Italicize those that apply in certain circumstances)

1. Smoking: the action or habit of inhaling and exhaling the smoke of tobacco or a drug.
2. Binge drinking: the consumption of an excessive amount of alcohol in a short period of time.
3. Drug abuse: the habitual taking of illegal drugs.
4. Nail biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
5. Lip biting: a common body language sign of anxiety/tension.
6. Night Owl: a person who is habitually active or wakeful at night.
7. Early bird: a person who rises, arrives, or acts before the usual or expected time.
8. Negative attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with criticism and pessimism.
9. Positive attitudes: a philosophy of approaching life with optimism and confidence.
10. Swearing: the use of offensive language.
11.
Superstitious: an irrational belief that an object, action, or
circumstance not logically related to a course of events influences its
outcome.

12. Inspecting fingernails: a common body language sign of boredom.
13. Scratching your neck: a common body language sign of uncertainty.
14. Foot and finger tapping: a common body language sign of stress/impatience.
15. Nose touch: a subtle body language sign of deceit.
16. Flipping hair: a common body language sign of craving attention.
17. Twirling hair: a common body language sign of flirtation.
18. Cracking knuckles: a common body language sign of readiness.
19. Hands behind back: a common body language sign of confidence.
20. Finger pointing: a common body language sign of authority.
21. Hands on hips: a common body language sign of readiness.
22. Hands in pockets: a common body language sign of mistrust/reluctance.
23. Frequent touch: a common body language sign of warmth/familiarity.
24. Throat-clearing: a common body language sign of rejection/doubt.
25. Jaw-clenching: a common body language sign of hostility.
26. Eye-rolling: a common body language sign of irritation.
27. Head-tilt: a common body language sign of interest.
28. Whistling: to emit high-pitched sound by forcing breakthrough a small hole between one’s lips or teeth; usually to a tune.
29. Humming: make a low, steady continuous sound like that of a bee; usually to a tune.
30. Perfectionism: refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.
31. Photographic memory: the ability to remember information or visual images in great detail.
32.
Paranoia: a mental condition characterized by delusions of persecution,
unwarranted jealousy, or exaggerated self-importance, typically worked
into an organized system.
33. Exaggeration: a statement that represents something as better or worse than it really is.
34. Intuitive: using or based on what one feels to be true even without conscious reasoning; instinctive.
35. Quick-witted: showing or characterized by an ability to think or respond quickly and effectively.
36. Interrupting: breaking the continuity of a conversation with one’s own statements.
37. Doodling: to scribble or make rough drawings, absentmindedly.
38. Irritable: having or showing a tendency to be easily annoyed.
39. Gambling: to play games of chance for money; bet.
40. Travel-sick: suffering from nausea caused by the motion of a moving vehicle, boat, or aircraft.
41. Sensitive: having or displaying a quick and delicate appreciation of others’ feelings.
42. Melancholy: a feeling of pensive sadness, typically with no obvious cause.
43. Chewing gum: the exercise of chewing flavored gum which is not intended for swallowing.
44. Fidgeting: to make small movements, especially of the hands and feet, through nervousness or impatience.
45. Skeptical: not easily convinced; having doubts or reservations.
46. Neat-freak: compulsively obsessed with cleanliness.
47. Gossiping: divulging personal information about others.
48. Prim: feeling or showing disapproval of anything regarded as improper; stiffly correct.
49. Abbreviating: Giving others nicknames/shortening names/giving pet names.
50. Having a catchphrase: having a sentence or phrase typically associated with a specific person.

Tagged by: @kyrelldreams

Tagging: Anyone who wants to do this still. 🙂

(An I’ll do other characters later if I have time or at least pop them into drafts to remind myself. Especially Karigan for you, Traigh since you tagged me.)

This looked too cute a chance to pass up. Since Destiney is a healer 🏥 Care for your sick/injured muse. (Flipped so Dest is the one caring for Riski mwhaha! ^^) Only if you want to since Dest hasn’t met Riski yet. :)

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Riski was starting to believe that he might, actually, be accident prone.

It wasn’t his fault that coeurls roamed the wilds around Wineport. It was a little his fault that he was more focused on the gigantoads and their long, sticky, vile tongues, but to his credit he had actually managed to avoid them. But in doing so, he’d walked right into the territory of a mother coeurl instead.

He’d gotten away – thankfully, she was more interested in getting back to her cub than giving chase – but the electricity from the whisker she’d slapped him in the back with still hadn’t faded. Riski sat with his back to a tree, his head hanging and his breath coming more shallowly than it should. Every few seconds his entire body would go rigid at another arc.

During one of the slack times, Riski looked down at the linkpearl that decorated the bracelet he wore. He could call – he could always call. But this would run its course and fade and everything would be fine. There was no sense making him worry about every little thing that happened when Riski was out in the field.

As he considered it, a noise could be heard over the sounds of the river. It was footsteps in the brush, somewhere behind him and coming closer. Riski’s hand fell away from his opposite wrist and the the linkpearl, instead finding the hilt of one of his daggers.

It was difficult to say what exactly he’d been expecting, but it wasn’t the woman who came suddenly into view. Violet eyes met blue and both held surprise.

It had started out as a trip down memory lane. It was almost her nameday and she had wanted to remember the days with Leon before his passing. Being this close to the place that brought Leon into her life was hard. Bad and good memories both were part of this place.

She walked south of Wineport with Daisy fluttering near her right shoulder, feeling more at ease the further she stepped away from Occidens. She had been careful to skirt around the
gigantoads at the river, shuddering at the thought of their slimy tongues. A disgusted expression on her face at the mere thought.

She was wondering if coming out here without her favorite bow was a bad idea. Not that having Daisy by her side didn’t give her a measure of comfort. It had just been a bad idea to bring that bow with her out this way after the things that had happened. It was too soon yet.

She stepped through the brush and froze. Blue eyes meeting violet. She was just as surprised as the man staring up at her a short distance away. Her eyes drifted from the elezen’s face to where his hand was upon a hilt of a dagger. Surprise became wariness and concern.

Her hands raised about chest height as she forced a smile, trying to appear as non-threatening as possible. Her former training days in the Shroud kicking in. There was something wrong with this situation but just from looking it was hard to understand completely. Daisy’s hands were on her shoulder as her fairy companion looked down at Riski.

“I’m sorry. I did not mean to startle you. It’s not exactly the safest of places to take a break though I must say.” Her tone was light and friendly. Had to keep herself from seeming dangerous. Not that she was dangerous. Well not dangerous to anyone but herself for the most part. Slowly she crouched down where she stood to be more at eye level with the stranger, hands on her knees and Daisy still holding on to her shoulder.

“My name is Destiney. This is Daisy.” A small wave and bright smile from the glittering fairy at her shoulder. Her eyes had never left him, searching. The eyes of a healer assessing the condition of a patient. “Do you need help? I’m a healer.”

( @riskibusiness I wanted to have this done sooner but I got too tired last night. XD Lack of sleep finally caught up with me.)

If you were to pick one song — and only one song — to describe your character, what would it be and why?

(OOC Since this is asking for my opinion of songs that fit. 😀 This was a tough one to answer for Lance. Destiney I sort of already had a song in mind since a few days ago. Thanks for asking @catina-kitska)

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(For Destiney in her current point of life it is Human by Manafest. She knows she’s not perfect an that she makes mistakes. The overall feel of the song fits her and her current feelings towards the Order. That despite being human as long as she has the Order she can keep climbing back out of the darkness regardless of her failures because she has come to treasure those among its members.)

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(For Lance I was torn. It was really hard to settle on a specific song. But I picked Winter in July by Sarah Brightman. I wanted something with a lighter tone. A lot of my choices in music just does not fit him so this took a good bit of time to even find anything that might work. It was not quite what I was hoping to find but I did find it fitting. Because like in the song Lance is trying to make the best of life as he can without living in the past, hoping everything will work out in time. The title is also sort of ironic being from Ishgard where they would see winter even in the summer.)

7. How does your character perceive themselves? Positive? Negative? Neutral?

(Hmm. OOC again. I find this one hard to really describe IC. Thanks for asking @cmahjiofbalmung)

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(Destiney has mixed views about herself. Some days are better then others. Over all she probably views herself in a more Neutral stand point most of the time. Rarely does she perceive herself as positive though. She tries hard an doubts still plague her on if she is good enough for the role she is trying to fill among the Order. On her worst days she perceives herself in negative ways. She’s still trying her best to find the best way possible moving forward as some parts of her soul are still jagged and sharp. She’s healing an the Order is a blessing for her though. She’s been able to find her way through some really dark moments with their strength. So with time she will be able to start to perceive herself in a better light.)

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(Lance perceives himself in mostly a positive light. He’s a knight with a high respect for honor and loyalty. The odds of him looking at himself negatively are very low and would depend on if he feels he’s failed in his duty somehow. Whether it be to Haillenarte, his cousin, or to his Lady Miu. Nothing to him is more sacred then his promises or honor.)

Does your character have any enemies? If so, who and why?

(Going OOC for this answer. Just easier. Thanks for asking, @sylvain-tolbert)

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(She knows she has people who dislike her but has not gone as far as calling them enemies. She probably should. Her enemies are few though. Mostly her Grandfather and Uncle in the Aurifore family. She’s a half-breed from a Ishgardian mother who was disowned. Dest has been making herself more known over time which does not please Grandfather. She has a ‘pet’ dragonet. Lady is not really a pet but a small dragonet that has chosen Destiney as an interesting person to follow about. Destiney allows it because she likes Lady’s company. As well as she’s been dealing with some very old sharylan astrologian cards that were found while on a mission with the Order. She’s only used them for her company though she had asked around in Ishgard seeking answers about the cards before. Every thing she seems to do in Ishgard draws more ire from her family who lives there. Her Grandfather is stuck in the old ways, preferring to look at some of the things she’s doing as heresy. Other then her family, Dest doesn’t really have any enemies of her own.)

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(Lance is in about the same boat as Destiney. Though not quite either. He’s not yet completely made his family his enemies. It will happen with time due to his actions and choices. Other then that he personally considers Heretics and dragons of Nidhogg’s brood to be his enemies. Anyone who tries to harm those he cares about of the nation he calls home is an enemy to him. He even considered one man of the Order and enemy before he learned more because the man had a reputation that Lance had once heard rumors about long ago. While he no longer considers the former Durendaire man an enemy, Lance still keeps a wary eye on him because of that reputation because he’s afraid that reputation will damn his cousin further.)

(Okay let’s see if I can get a journal post done now that I got through the asks. 😀 Well all the ones that were currently there. I’ll answer anymore if they show up of course! ^^ I enjoy answering them. It’s quite fun. 😀 This entry though is going to be a bit more emotional an less of a telling of the events of the week since last entry. As I said in an ask earlier, Dest is a bit emotionally unstable right now. Thanks @onidephor, Leera helped break Dest. I hope that smug duskwight bastard is happy an enjoying every minute of it. :P)

Am I really so fragile? Am I truly like broken glass? I overheard Dusk’s words as I lingered near the stairs after changing my clothes to head to the Shroud in hopes of finding Basteaux. I wanted to run upstairs an claim I was not glass! But… Maybe I am…


I must be so broken an be the only one who can not see it. How could I feel nothing about ten dead children! Ten! I felt numb and empty. Yet… I was so near to being sick watching the rest of the Order kill the bandits responsible. I spent the better part of two days wandering about wondering why I felt so little. Was I really so broken I could feel so little about dead children? That I could find no rage. That I could find no killing calm towards those responsible. Had I shattered myself so badly that day outside Occidens that I could no longer find that rage an anger for such a tragedy?


I thought I was going to be okay. I thought I could be strong an help those who needed it. I thought I could repay the kindness I have received ever since joining the Order. I told Rhisi I was fine. That I could find no rage like everyone else could. She hoped I would never find it again. I thought I was fine. But time only made me doubt myself.


I found Leera outside the house a few days ago. I was cautious at first as I usually am. I know what the others think of him. I know I can never fully trust him. But… He seemed like he was actually sorry about the whole incident. I found myself drawn towards him like a moth to a flame.


When Felix showed… I said words I should never had said. I felt as if a slap to my face would have been less painful or even a sword to the gut… He thought… I was stupid for wanting to be around Leera. Even though he was the one who first left me alone with him! Even though he never once thought to ask if I was okay after finding out the truth about Leera in person! He claims Leera is a monster an only wants to kill certain members of the Order… Yet… I see more to the man then that. I can see some shred of good in him. I want to believe that maybe there is a chance he can be something more.


Dusk had happened by during our exchange of words. She called my behavior childish… Maybe… I think I had a right to my feelings. I felt so raw and hurt. I felt so… Alone. I wanted to curl into a ball an wish the world away. I threw words at her. I told her how I felt. Blamed things on those that made me feel as if… as if… I was not a person. I blamed Oni and his treating Daisy and I as snacks. I blamed Aimee an her lack of making sure I knew my job as a healer for the Order. I blamed Felix for thinking less of me. I blamed everyone but my weak self at the time…


As she left I noticed Leera had left a linkpearl near me when he had left. I grabbed it an held it tight. I felt… Defiant. Hurt and defiant. I wanted to prove them wrong. Prove to them that maybe there was a shred of humanity inside the man they thought of as a monster. That even as fragile as I can be in their eyes… I can still be strong in different ways. Continue to reforge the broken parts of myself as I had been. I had been doing so well…


It was after that exchange that I had gone out with my bow. I was still feeling so raw an hurt. I figured a few drinks with Basteaux an forgetting the world was in order. Instead all I found was more pain. This time physical. I was forced to flee from some bandits as I was lacking care as I traveled through the woods. Somewhere along the line I had fallen. Tried to stop my fall with my bow hand. I know the wrist is sprained. And… I do not care. I welcomed the pain. Once I was safe I took the time to wrap my wrist and hand. Not well since I was doing it with only one hand.


I’m still so… Mixed. So hurt an sad. I don’t want to bother Rhisi. I don’t want to bother anyone. I just… I’m not sure what I want. I have avoided the hall since that night. I’ve avoided all contact with the rest of the Order. I’m… not sure… What I am going to do come tomorrow… I should be there for the mission… But… I just do not know… Twelve help me… Maybe I should use that linkpearl Leera left me… Is this a mistake? Should I have not picked it up at all? Maybe I should just let myself believe what they say about him instead… Is it really wrong of me to want to think that maybe Leera might change for the better with the right influences? I won’t know without trying… It could mean my death… It could mean more pain… I should be afraid… But I’m not…