(OOC Since this is asking for my opinion of songs that fit. 😀 This was a tough one to answer for Lance. Destiney I sort of already had a song in mind since a few days ago. Thanks for asking @catina-kitska)
(For Destiney in her current point of life it is Human by Manafest. She knows she’s not perfect an that she makes mistakes. The overall feel of the song fits her and her current feelings towards the Order. That despite being human as long as she has the Order she can keep climbing back out of the darkness regardless of her failures because she has come to treasure those among its members.)
(For Lance I was torn. It was really hard to settle on a specific song. But I picked Winter in July by Sarah Brightman. I wanted something with a lighter tone. A lot of my choices in music just does not fit him so this took a good bit of time to even find anything that might work. It was not quite what I was hoping to find but I did find it fitting. Because like in the song Lance is trying to make the best of life as he can without living in the past, hoping everything will work out in time. The title is also sort of ironic being from Ishgard where they would see winter even in the summer.)
(Hmm. OOC again. I find this one hard to really describe IC. Thanks for asking @cmahjiofbalmung)
(Destiney has mixed views about herself. Some days are better then others. Over all she probably views herself in a more Neutral stand point most of the time. Rarely does she perceive herself as positive though. She tries hard an doubts still plague her on if she is good enough for the role she is trying to fill among the Order. On her worst days she perceives herself in negative ways. She’s still trying her best to find the best way possible moving forward as some parts of her soul are still jagged and sharp. She’s healing an the Order is a blessing for her though. She’s been able to find her way through some really dark moments with their strength. So with time she will be able to start to perceive herself in a better light.)
(Lance perceives himself in mostly a positive light. He’s a knight with a high respect for honor and loyalty. The odds of him looking at himself negatively are very low and would depend on if he feels he’s failed in his duty somehow. Whether it be to Haillenarte, his cousin, or to his Lady Miu. Nothing to him is more sacred then his promises or honor.)
(Going OOC for this answer. Just easier. Thanks for asking, @sylvain-tolbert)
(She knows she has people who dislike her but has not gone as far as calling them enemies. She probably should. Her enemies are few though. Mostly her Grandfather and Uncle in the Aurifore family. She’s a half-breed from a Ishgardian mother who was disowned. Dest has been making herself more known over time which does not please Grandfather. She has a ‘pet’ dragonet. Lady is not really a pet but a small dragonet that has chosen Destiney as an interesting person to follow about. Destiney allows it because she likes Lady’s company. As well as she’s been dealing with some very old sharylan astrologian cards that were found while on a mission with the Order. She’s only used them for her company though she had asked around in Ishgard seeking answers about the cards before. Every thing she seems to do in Ishgard draws more ire from her family who lives there. Her Grandfather is stuck in the old ways, preferring to look at some of the things she’s doing as heresy. Other then her family, Dest doesn’t really have any enemies of her own.)
(Lance is in about the same boat as Destiney. Though not quite either. He’s not yet completely made his family his enemies. It will happen with time due to his actions and choices. Other then that he personally considers Heretics and dragons of Nidhogg’s brood to be his enemies. Anyone who tries to harm those he cares about of the nation he calls home is an enemy to him. He even considered one man of the Order and enemy before he learned more because the man had a reputation that Lance had once heard rumors about long ago. While he no longer considers the former Durendaire man an enemy, Lance still keeps a wary eye on him because of that reputation because he’s afraid that reputation will damn his cousin further.)
(Okay. Got done with the journal post for Destiney. Now to get a bit of writing done for Lance. Cause he has had a wonderful few days. ^^ Yay~!)
Lance felt like he was walking on air as he went to his next day of duty in Skyfire Locks. He may not have been able to find his cousin but his day with Miu had been nothing short of perfect.
Finding his cousin still worried his mind though. The few days he had shadowed her before his date had left him troubled. She had seemed so… Disturbed. There just had not been the usual mood about her. She had seemed so detached an almost… Broken. This was not the cousin he had gotten used to spying on. Something was clearly wrong.
He tried to keep his thoughts on Miu as he worked. He had kissed the girl for crying out loud. Even more that she had kissed him back! But slowly his thoughts became troubled with other problems. If his family found out about his affections for the small miqo’te woman… They would surely cast him out. Even if he was no longer heir to the family name he had still been expected to marry well an carry on the family name. This would not be the kind of woman they expected him to end up with.
A frown creased his brow as he looked out over the winter landscape of Coerthas. How was he to keep protecting both ladies? He had to find a way to keep all the truths hidden behind lies to his family.
He had to find his cousin as soon as he could. He was worried for her. He had tried last night to find her with no success. His cousin apparently did not want to be found. Not that he had had much luck finding Raiden either. He still wanted to seek Raiden for training or at least to challenge the man in hopes of strengthening himself. Things around the Order’s house had been so… Subdued feeling. Something had happened. Something bad.
Now he just had to wait for his duty to end for the day. He would try again. Destiney was out there somewhere. Hopefully whatever was going on would pass if he could not. Miu had told him to speak with Destiney. He was done hiding in the shadows.
A heavy sigh as he looked away from the snow. He was worried for his future and the future of his cousin. His future with Miu. But he could not be afraid. He had to keep fighting. No more hiding in shadows. It was time to be open and honest. It was time to confront the monster head on.
A small smile as he thought again on that day with Miu by the waterfall. Together with her. She was his strength right now. He would get through anything and everything as long as he had her. She was his summer sun in the never ending winter of his life.
Just like a rose. Together they had something beautiful but he was the thorns protecting the beauty an joy that was Miu, the rose.
“Cooking without burning food.” She sighs an puts her head down on the table before her. “But maybe it is a good thing I can not. I have a bad sweet tooth. If I could cook the sweets I craved… It may be a bad thing. Granted work helps to keep me fit but I would hate to think of the sweets I would make an devour if I could cook.”
“I think… I would like to be skilled at more then a sword and pretty words. Maybe skilled with a trade of some sort. A fall back plan should I ever find myself unable to be a knight. Alas I have no skills with my hands beyond holding a weapon.”
“Somewhere near water. A waterfall or lake. Or even in the Shroud among the falling raindrops. There is something peaceful about the rain. Or the roaring of water drowning out all other noise. Or just the absence of people because they are afraid of getting wet. The water is calming no matter it’s form.” She closes her eyes an sighs in content as she imagines being in one of those places at the time. “If I have a good book handy at the time it is even better yet. Though I would not risk taking a book in the rain. I would not wish to harm the book.”
“Being around Lady Miu is calming. But I find I also like the silence in Coerthas as the snow falls. Watching the flakes drift down from the skies above. Granted I could do without the bitter cold winds an such that tend to join the snow. But each flake is special. Watching them dance through the air as they drift down.” He sighs wistfully. “Though I do also miss the Coerthas of old. Before the never ending winter.”
“Nervous habits? Really?” She looks away and rubs the back of her neck. She finally looks at her nails before picking at them, finding a rough edge on one. “Why ever would you want to know about such a thing? Is this really necessary?”
(She has a tendency to deflect or ramble when nervous.)
“Nervous habits… I pace. A lot…” He shrugs his shoulders, hands raised slightly. “Or I have a habit of growing silent when nervous. To think a time when I actually have nothing to say!” He gives a warm laugh. “I am sure some people actually enjoy making me nervous in hopes I will shut my mouth for once.”
(Oh joy. XD I’m answer this one OOC for Dest. Dest IC at this time would not be in any shape to discuss this. Lance’s will be IC.)
(Dest’s current biggest problem is complicated. Emotionally right now she is a damned mess this week. Friday’s mission and Leera just have her at a breaking point. She actually had a verbal confrontation with Felix and Dusk, who she considers friends and family among the Order. She was already sort of emotionally on edge before monday’s confrontation because of the mission. She found Leera outside the house an began to speak with him. Now Dest originally thought she could be friends with Leera. Then things happened to make her distrust an remain indifferent to him. Slowly though she has found herself drawn to him again despite what happened between them. She wants to see the good in him though he is technically a villain to a few members of the Order. Well Felix has shot Leera outside of the house before. Dest has sort of been trying to run interference between the two to try an avoid anymore public violence. Words were said and now Dest feels Felix dislikes her. *makes grabby hands* Nuuu! Not Dest’s drinking buddy! An she feels Dusk thinks she is nothing but a child. She went out searching for a friend in the South Shroud after the confrontation. She could not find Basteaux but did manage to get herself hurt. An because she is feeling so emotionally self destructive right now she hasn’t healed her sprained wrist. Leera however was enjoying every moment of Dest’s breakdown outside the house before he left. So now she has to try an decide where to go from here. How to move past this moment an if she can fix what has happened.)
“My biggest current problems are almost one and the same. Though not entirely either. They all revolve around family.” He explains as he paces about the room, the metal of his greaves echoing off the stone. “In order to protect my cousin I must lie to my family. To care about Miu, I must lie to my family. Either way I must lie to someone. It… It is complicated.”
“My family. Happy and whole.” She says with a soft smile as she looks towards the corner of the room where her bow and quiver of arrows rests. “My father’s proud smiles. My mother’s tender touches. My brother’s grumpy retorts when I chased bullies away. There is not one particular memory in general.”
Her smile takes on a hint of sadness. “Sadly that family of memory is gone. But I never forgotten. My brother rarely speaks to us. My father is gone. All that remains is my mother and I. If anything the loss has brought us closer.”
“Being praised by Lord Chlodebaimt even though I was still a novice. His words and deeds are what drove me to keep pushing forward even through his loss.” He smiles proudly at the memory. “I thought I had done so poorly. Preformed every inch like a novice. An here the man walks over an puts a hand on my hanging head. His words… Gave me courage and strength.”
Spirit of the Warlock 