Spirit of the Warlock

(Journal entry! 😀 Yesterday was tons of fun. Thanks guys for giving me such a good day despite being home sick. @onidephor @xapamozei and Felix.)

Today should have been a very good day. Well I guess in a way it -was- a good day. With some exceptions of course.

I ran into X’apa downstairs near the airship docks. An I do mean I ran into the poor guy. I was too busy reading a book to watch where I was going as I headed down to the small bar there for some piece and quiet.

X’apa joined me for some refreshments at the bar. We talked for a bit about life. An about the misadventures he and Chee are planning to get into. An possibly joked about including some alcohol in their supplies an claiming it to be good for medical reasons. It was a nice time sitting there with him just talking about things. I wish I could go with Chee and X’apa on their trip they are planning. However it is their trip an I have other things I need to do.

We parted ways when it was time for me to join Felix at Ishgard. We had planned to go out for drinks. We started with some nice spiced wine at the Forgotten Knight before moving to a nice little bar in Coethras down by the Observatorium for mead.

Our conversations were light an playful. Well for the most part. I did try to figure out what kind of treats he liked out of curiosity. I sort of wanted to get something for him. To thank him for putting up with me drinking. I mean I am sure I am probably interesting to watch… But he did also have to take me home after.

I remember most of our conversations. Talks of him helping me plot to turn Raiden into a mummy using actual mummy wrappings from Qarn. Talk of men including possibly inviting Leera to the beach that night. I -might- have mentioned he was yummy for a highlander man. Curse the mead an my mouth… I guess what they say about loose lips an alcohol is true. I do also remember telling him about my own stupidity right after leaving Ishgard. Might have told him also about Leon. I still think it would have been a nice contest to pit Leon against Raiden in the terms of scandalous behavior. Too bad it will never happen.

I do look forward to more outing with Felix on this kind. It was a very surprisingly good time. Even if I was too drunk to safely walk home on my own. Heh… An even if I was telling him so many things. Oh the endless teasing I shall endure. I felt entirely safe an comfortable just drinking an chatting with him. An enduring his teasing. Including the few times he had me blushing an just wondering what the heck he was thinking. He was lucky he was wearing armor. An that I was drunk so even if I had tried to swat him a few times I probably would have missed.

I decided to head back to my room at the Order once Felix left me at the Goblet. Of course I was feeling a bit steadier then I had when we left Coethras. So I was able to walk on my own. I seen Raiden sitting outside. As if he was waiting on my return. I dashed into the house an into my room.

I was not safe though. Curse it all. Raiden came into my room an I was definitely not sober enough to try an out maneuver him to escape. I did try to sneak away after telling him about a bottle of wine I had on the table when he thought I was not drunk enough. But… He knew… Damn that man. So I gave up an plopped my butt down on the couch to await my fate.

He walked behind the couch where I was sitting. I wanted to jump an run. I felt like a rabbit waiting for the wolf to pounce. I am pretty sure I was as red as an apple or worse as he leaned down to speak near my ear. An the way his hand was gently touching my face. Ugh! I was not sure if I wanted to melt or run. Raiden was so very confusing. In the end he left without doing more then driving me crazy. Said I had two hours till the beach an to wear my swimsuit.

Damn that man!

I showed up to the beach. I was in my swimsuit but I had left my tunic on over top as I looked around for Raiden. He was not there at first. Thankfully I was also more sober when I arrived. I teased Felix about the fact he had shown up in armor after mentioning while drinking he might show some skin if I was lucky. He said something about only if I showed more skin would he. Oh that man. He does not know well enough not to call me on that. I pulled off that tunic an teased him that he should go change. An boy… He came back in swim trunks! His skin tone is just a bit lighter then Leon’s. I even poked at his stomach as a joke was made that he might have metal abs.

I joined Felix and Chloe at the bar though I just got a water since how much I had to drink earlier in the day. I was still buzzing enough without adding more fuel to the fire. An wouldn’t you know it… Raiden finally showed up. An stood behind me… I nearly shrieked when his hands touched my shoulders. All sorts of thoughts were running through my head. Felix sort of stood up for me. Only sort of. An Raiden sat down in Felix’s lap an put his feet in mine.

Eventually I got the idea to try an tickle Raiden’s feet. It was quite the sight! Watching him fall backwards off Felix’s lap. Seeing only his butt and legs in the air. An I really really need to learn to shut my mouth. Cause after I said something Raiden was on the attack. I tried to bolt when he came to stand beside me but I caught my foot off the stool. I was unable to right my balance enough an ended up on my butt on the ground. Raiden pounced while I was vulnerable. ARGH!!! He licked from the tip of my ear to my face! I wanted to melt and shriek at the same time. A new blue streak! Ugh!

I know I was being dramatic but I did end up squealing in a mix of embarrassment an rage before flopping onto my back an closing my eyes. Eventually Bow was standing over me. Talking of throwing me into the ocean to wash off the slime. As much as the idea was tempting to allow Bow to carry me away like that… Ugh curse my problems. I allowed Bow to help me to my feet an joined her in walking down to the beach.

I tried to scrub my face with the ocean water. I’m sure I probably also made things worse. Maria was there. An there was talk of dying my hair blue to match the slime. An adding pink to my wardrobe to sort of look like yummy cotton candy. I am not much for pink in my clothes though.

Eventually I excused myself as Raiden and Aimee walked up. I do not know why I did what I did. I guess a part of me was so annoyed I had to get even right then an there. I walked up to the two of them an tried to get at Raiden to tickle his sides. Aimee might have doused all three of us with water because she had gotten caught in the middle of things. An Raiden… Insufferable! He was not even phased. I ended up apologizing to Aimee an stalking back towards dry sand.

Eventually Bow and Chloe came to join me on the beach. An Felix might have teased one last time as he walked by to head home. I must remember to elbow him later for that tease.

We talked about ways to get even with Raiden. An eventually it turned into just general chatter as I laid back against the sand. I ended up dozing off there in the warmth with Bow on one side and Neiven on the other. Oh yes Neiven showed up not long after Felix had left. So there was talk of me trying to bite Bow’s butt… I swear that joke will never disappear. Sadly I missed Bow leaving since I had dozed off.

This morning however… I noticed more blue in my hair on the side that Raiden had licked. I had made it worse when scrubbing my face. So I set about dying my hair an eventually going through my wardrobe to make changes as well. If I am going to have blue hair I might as well make the best of it.

(Yay journal entry time. Cause why not! An because I need something to do while sick at home from work. XD An because Dest had a very interesting night last night. 😉 Hehe. Hopefully later will be fun too since Dest and Felix have drinking plans in Ishgard.)

This week has been both interesting and… strange. Dusk still baffles me. I can not tell if it is just in her behavior or the strange things she does. But I can not help but find her a bit unnerving at times.

A few days ago we journeyed into Cutter’s Cry to deal with an antlion queen. Dusk made me her assistant for whatever it was she was doing. Some sort of ritual. Involving water and candles an her magic. Luna had come along an made a sort of Clay version of Kagato since he is still unable to be found.

Chloe and ClayGato dealt with subduing the Queen as Dusk began the ritual. I left Daisy to seeing over the well being of the others as I got the water an began to pour it as Dusk directed. In the end when Dusk said the ritual was completed and the candles were now a creepy black, Chloe put down the queen. I helped to collect the candles much to my dismay at the idea of touching them. Something about using the queen’s fear an pain to make the candles… It just does not sit well with me.

The next day was another mission outside of Ul’dah. Apparently our actions a few weeks ago had consequences we had not considered. Killing the bees to help the refugees led to problems for the Miners. It seems they also used the honey from the bees to make Mead to compliment their income from mining.

I was sent with Dusk and Chloe out to East Shroud to speak with the bee keepers about possibly acquiring some bees to replace those we had killed. I was picked because of our camping trip several weeks back when Rhisi an I had gotten honey for the food. I had mentioned I used to spend a lot of time in the East Shroud.

So we went out to talk to Rosa. She runs the bee hives out there an even makes good profit on Mead from the honey she harvests. We were in luck that Rosa was working and kind enough to give us a young queen bee with a few males to help populate a hive. All she asked us for was some of the Mead the miners would produce with her bees to see their work an compare it to hers. And well a little of my time an my skill with a bow. Some of the wildlife can sometimes be bothersome to her an the bees. A small price to pay.

With the crate Chloe was able to put together and the herbs Dusk used, we were able to get the bees back over to the miners of Nanawa. I’m not quite sure what the other members of the Order had been doing but they looked like they had been kept more then busy in our absence.

However… I guess time got away from me this year with as busy as my life has been. Before I knew it, people were back into that festive spirit again to thank the Archon and the Warriors of Light for saving the world from the Calamity. I can not believe another year has passed already…

The pain is less then it used to be. But it also explains why the nightmares have been a bit more persistent lately. Another year since Carteneau. Another year since I nearly died… I guess I should find time to visit my father’s grave. As well as Leon’s of course. Not that Leon passed at this time of year. More to thank him again for the hand he had in saving my life.

I returned to the house in a less then cheerful mood, hiding my eyes behind that half-mask I had made to replace my father’s old mask. It seems I walked into quite the end of a conversation. Something about water walking around… An I wonder why Dusk makes me question things…

Dusk an Maria had just been leaving. Felix an Annowre were still there near the fireplace. As usual Felix offered me a glass of that white wine which I gladly accepted. The three of us talked for a bit an I mentioned my dislike for this festival. Eventually she left after finding a can of chocolate whipped cream in the kitchen. Felix an I talked for a few moments longer before he decided it was time to retire for the evening.

But before he could leave there was a knock at the door. Apparently we had a late night guest. Surprising. Although I think what surprised me more was that it was… A rather handsome duskwight. An Felix decided to leave me alone with him. Me! Alone with Leera. Felix even gave me a playful jab before departing… That man! I was so very nervous despite that glass of wine I had had.

I showed Leera around the house as we talked. Told him what I could about the Order though I am no officer. I tried my best not to be a nervous wreck though I could not keep myself was looking at him… Curse my problems for dark skinned elezen... I learned he was from the Gridanian outskirts which is probably a good thing since there is still a good bit of prejudice against Duskwights. An he is more of man of the craft than one of battle.

I had told him I was a healer for the Order but I was also not helpless because I do have skill with a bow.
He may have made a reference to me being a rose with thorns.

I could not hide my blush at such a comment. We talked for a bit longer upstairs over drinks. Though not the alcoholic kind. Leera admitted he does not drink.

I was having such a pleasant evening speaking with this handsome man that before I knew it, it was very late. How time flies when one is having fun. Especially with one such as Leera. We parted with the hopes of seeing one another again. He was a total gentleman. Unlike that Raiden… Who of course is probably still plotting ways to get even with me for Frost…

I went to bed feeling much better then I had before Leera had shown up. He had given my mind other things to think of then loss. Heh. Maybe I will seek him out personally soon. I would not mind losing a few more hours time in his presence.

(So I might have been sitting in Ul’dah yesterday just sort of watching people running by an such. I had had a bad day at work. XD So I was wanted to RP yet at the same time not. An then there is also the shy thing where I am sort of nervous about walking up to a stranger. It’s like “Hey you’re cute~!” >_> Yeah… I can’t do that. So I was in a way… Elf stalking. XD Gawd my thing for Elezen. An I may have followed two of the cuties on here. XD An now they are following me. So allow me to go bury my head in the sand now kthxbai! An to make matters worse or better or funnier… Whatever. XD Konner an Neiven found me in Ul’dah an I might have mentioned in our OOC chat channel that I was Elezen watching while reading. What do those two do? They started walking up to random Elezen dudes an trying to talk to them. An somehow they got onto butt biting. XD OMG! Definitely helped lighten my mood while at the same time embarrassing me. Anyways! Time for a new journal entry for Dest.)

Dinner the other night was very nice. Rhisi as always prepared a wonderful meal for us. For once we also had a full table. It was quite the change to what I was used to seeing. We had a traveling magician of sorts join us this night too.

He had the silverware putting on a show for us as it carved up the roast in a rather spectacular fashion. Imagine a man made of utensils. It was quite a nice show though I think it would have been something that would have amused children to no end.

As things wound down… It was the end of dinner that things got dark. Kagato mentioned going back down into that forsaken place yet again. I fear for him. I really do. He refused to allow any of us to go with him because he claims we are not expendable. He would rather take the risk of going with strangers. It upset Rhisi very much that he refused our help or our words. I… I just did not know what was best to do about this… So I retired to my room an figured if I was needed someone would let me know.

I was not in the best of moods the next day. I had not slept well. Nightmares of course. I guess my few days away helped but not nearly enough. So once my work was done for the day I went to Ul’dah to just wander about.

I ran into Neiven and Konner. I was not really in the mood to explain my true reasons for wandering around the city. So I used an excuse. Not that the distraction would not have been welcomed. Maybe it was what I should have been doing anyways. Ul’dah is never lacking in people. I told the both of them I was Elezen watching. Since… Well… My thing for elezen… Not that there are many of them around Ul’dah. I did see a few but of course I would not have had the nerve to walk up to them.

Well the two of them got it into their heads that they needed to act like… wingmen. Ugh! An in their silly antics also got it into their heads that butt biting was an elezen thing or something. I never so much wanted to bury my head more so then that moment. They were walking up to complete strangers (elezen of course) an asking them things. The plus side to all this insanity… It did lighten my mood.

I finally left Ul’dah to return to the house in the Goblet. I did not want to run into any of the people they talked to… It would have been very embarrassing.

Chee came by the house shortly after I had gone upstairs with the intention of getting a glass of wine to calm my nerves. We got to talking for a few moments before Felix joined us upstairs an got that nice white wine I like for Chee and I. I am unsure how long it was till we heard more voices downstairs. One of which being Raiden’s voice.

An apparently Raiden wants to get even with me for getting him in trouble with Frost at the beach the other night. Ugh… Why me?! He should not have used Frost’s name as a distraction!

Raiden eventually even came upstairs with Aimee clinging onto him. An blue ceruleum on her hair an forehead because of Raiden. I kept my eyes on him as I downed that first glass of wine rather quickly. I thought I might need it an more to deal with what might happen. Of course Raiden went for a different target though. He went over an gave Felix a sloppy ceruleum kiss… Heh. I only felt slightly bad for him. After all Felix was enjoying my discomfort the night at the beach when I had Frost on one side of me and Raiden on the other.

Of course leave it to Raiden though. He came over to me only to torment me with the knowledge that he was not going to get me tonight. He was going to let me stew for a bit. Strike when I am not expecting it. Ugh! Again I say… Why me?! Of course he also mentioned he had a list of like three people he liked to kiss.  An of course I was one of those three along with Aimee and Felix. I do believe he loves to watch me squirm an suffer. Well I guess suffer is not really the right word. It makes it sound like he does all this with ill intent. I know it is all in good fun. I guess that is why I endure it. Not that it does not drive me crazy.

A old friend of the Order dropped by to visit briefly and leave a nice tray of cakes an sweets. Mmm… Sweets. Of course by then I had already had three glasses of wine. So I was not fully following any of the conversations. Though I do remember Luna coming in. She was in a sort of panic. Seems we were right to worry about Kagato going back down there by himself. However there is nothing I can do at this time. I shall wait for Rhisi to call us to aid in the rescue. Kagato…

Most had left for the evening after that. Except for another guest at the house. A rather striking lady elezen named Bow. We spent a bit talking as we snacked on a treat from the tray of sweets. Neiven came back by an the three of us talked. Even mentioned the situation from earlier in Ul’dah. I hope to get to see Bow again. I would like to get to know her a bit more. Perhaps when I am a bit more sober.

(I wanted to make a journal entry last night. XD But it was almost 1am. So I’m going to do so now instead lol.)

My weekend away… Was much needed. I feel better then I had before I went away. I decided to visit the Forelands an give Lady time to be among her kind. After all I can only allow my little dragonet to follow me so much. She is still a dragon after all.

Of course since I was on my own I took my bow instead of my tome. It would give me a chance to keep up my skills. I know I much prefer healing now but… I can not simply forsake all my father and Leon taught me because of a few nightmares. Leon would tease me for my weakness an my father would be disappointed. Sometimes though… my hands still shake when I reach for my bow. Thankfully it is only when I feel at my worst that my hands are unsteady.

Anyways I should not continue to dwell on the past again. Leon always told me I should pay attention to the present. The past was just a stepping stone to reach where we are today. Find myself a pretty distraction if my thoughts were a bit darker then they should be. But then again Leon was also a terrible flirt with the ladies. I do not think I would have made it past the nightmares without his presence though. I should take flowers to his grave soon.

Thinking of Leon… I wonder where Uncle Ricard is now. I still have not seen him since he left me. Though he does still occasionally send me a letter to let me know he is still alive.

But yes my weekend was chaotic but at the same time just what I needed. I might have been chased once or twice by wildlife in the Forelands… Might have gotten a few scrapes an minor cuts. Makes me glad I have been studying more average methods of healing since I left my stone an tome at home so Daisy was not at my side. I guess I turned myself into my own practice dummy for treatment. Heh…

I made it out of the Forelands just in time for the Beach gathering in the Mist. The only downside was that I did not have time for a trip home for a change of clothes. Which might have been a good thing anyways since my tunic sleeves hid most of my attempts at bandages for my cuts. It was rather warm for my gear though. I left my bow an mask in the sand under the tent where Felix and Dusk were sitting.

Of course then I remembered the odds of Frost or Raiden showing up. Because I could hear their voices though I was not close enough to hear any of their words. It was enough though to make me want to bury my head in the sand. The things Oni said… Ugh! Thankfully Felix had some of that wine I like on hand. Bless him.

I was just finishing that first glass to try an calm my nerves when Frost walked over. I jumped. No doubt about that. Then Raiden joined us. I am pretty sure I squeaked an jumped again… Now I really did want to bury my head. An Felix offered me a second glass of wine. I think he knew I was going to need it. Badly.

Frost asked me what I was so… Embarrassed about. So I told him the things Oni had said the day he licked me… I think Frost was a bit peeved at both Oni and Raiden for it. Raiden took off to get something from Oni’s house nearby an to escape Frost. Frost went chasing after him.

Eventually I did catch Frost returning alone an wandering down to the water. I took a deep breath an kicked off my boots before following him down at a distance. I felt slightly nervous and afraid. Afraid that he might have gotten the wrong idea by my behavior an the way things had happened. I was worried it might hamper my attempts at being friends with him.

I apologized yet again to Frost. I seem to be doing that a lot lately when it comes to him. I explained to him how I am married an I really did just want to be friends. He apologized for Oni/Raiden’s behavior but he should not have had to. It was not his fault that they decided to use his name to distract me. Or his fault that I allowed it to distract me. I soon found myself explaining a bit of my thing for elezen men. An I might have mentioned how they were a distraction an a curiosity. An mention of the nightmares. But… I felt an odd sort of comfort talking to him or maybe it was just the second glass of wine. Probably the wine. After all I barely know much about Frost.

We did also talk about more then just the dark an depressing. There was also talk about how Coerthas used to be green. The way elezen of Ishgard and Gridania differed and to avoid Silencieuse Duskwights because they like to tamper with the Void. It was a rather pleasant night. I did not even care that I was sitting in the ocean waters in my gear. Thankfully my most important items were back at the safety of the tents though. I felt maybe I stood a chance at getting to know Frost after all.

Anyways I have much still to do. On many fronts. At least I am feeling much better.